My last fling has been on my mind lately…
There are days that I miss her, like today. It’s cold and gray, with peeks of sunshine piercing through the window. That’s when I’m reminded of her, her warmth, her charm, and how she had this power to embrace me with her soothing calm.
We would enjoy the sunrise with the sand between our toes. We had beautiful sandy memories her & I.
Despite having our good times there was so much unknown; she welcomed me, charmed me, but still I did not feel completely convinced she was home. She said and did things in the past that still had me pissed.
When I started to ponder walking away she always seemed to know. She would smile at me with her sun-kissed love and whisper, “We still have the beach”
and that’s where we’d go
The waves would clash against one another humming their beautiful fight song and I would listen, I couldn’t help but to hum along. I always seemed to drift back in her arms- she had it that way.
But last summer, oh last summer, she got volatile and vicious bringing up memories from her past before me. I got distant once more, but something told me that wasn’t the way. I held on thinking things would change- I stuck up for her.
And just as life moves like the ocean’s waves, my life took me in a new direction. I had to say good-bye.
I still get news about her, turns out she still has her flaws
She’s not perfect, I’m not perfect, we’re not perfect, but for some reason I miss walking beside her on days like this. I long for the sun to kiss my face, the waves to crash hummingly, and that feeling of calm that crashes over me when I was with her…. sometimes
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